Revealed: Alec Baldwin’s disturbing messages to Hilaria following cinematographer’s tragic shooting.
Hilaria Baldwin Reveals Alec Baldwin’s Struggles After the Rust Shooting
Hilaria Baldwin opened up about her husband, Alec Baldwin’s, deep emotional struggles following the tragic Rust shooting incident. On a recent episode of their reality show, The Baldwins, she shared a heartbreaking moment when Alec expressed in a text message that he wanted to end his life after the shocking event. This revelation came a day after the accident where cinematographer Halyna Hutchins lost her life due to an unfortunate discharge of the prop gun Alec was handling.
The Day After the Incident
In the episode, Hilaria, who is 41, spoke about discovering text messages Alec sent her expressing his despair. She said, “I found these text messages the other day. He said he wanted to kill himself.” This candid moment highlighted the severity of Alec’s emotional state after the tragic shooting incident in October 2021. Halyna Hutchins, who was a talented cinematographer, tragically lost her life while working on the film.
The Aftermath of the Shooting
Since the incident, Alec has faced numerous challenges, including legal issues. In October of the following year, he reached a confidential settlement with Hutchins’ family regarding wrongful death claims. Furthermore, his trial for involuntary manslaughter was dismissed in August 2024.
Hilaria went on to describe the heavy burden of guilt that has weighed on Alec since the accident. She mentioned, “He has survivor’s guilt… He wishes it were him.” The emotional toll has affected not only Alec’s mental health but also his physical well-being. Hilaria noted that he has experienced health problems, including heart issues, and has been hospitalized multiple times.
Alec’s Health Challenges
Hilaria shared that Alec’s deteriorating mental health has manifested physically, leading to episodes where he would faint. She remarked, “It’s hard sometimes. But hopefully we’re at the tail end of it.” On their reality show, both Alec and Hilaria spoke openly about the deep impact of the tragedy on their lives. During the premiere episode, Alec described feeling mentally drained, stating, “This past year was just terrible.” He revealed that there were days he struggled to get out of bed, a stark contrast to his usual self.
The Impact on Family Life
The couple acknowledged how the tragedy has not only affected them but also their seven children. In deeper conversations during the show, Hilaria added, “Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline.” She shared that Alec has been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and reflected on how he often questions why he survived when Halyna did not.
Alec also expressed sentiments of despair, saying, “I’m happier when I’m asleep than when I’m awake.” This statement shows how deeply the tragedy has affected his day-to-day life. Hilaria empathized with him and underscored the importance of family. “Even though this is hard… I look at the kids and see how hard we’re trying to create happiness for them,” she said.
Coping with Pain
Hilaria characterized Alec’s emotional changes as "painful," noting how dark his thoughts have sometimes become. In one particularly touching moment, she addressed him directly, mentioning that he sometimes wakes up questioning why he is still alive, stating, “You get to the point where you’re so dark… it’s so painful.”
Their conversations revealed the emotional labyrinth they navigate together, as they both recognize the lasting effects of Halyna Hutchins’ tragic death. Hilaria stated, “Halyna lost her life in the most unthinkable tragedy. A son lost his mom. We’re going to feel and carry this pain forever.”
The Unseen Reality
Through their reality show, Alec and Hilaria provide a glimpse into the complexities of their daily lives following such a traumatic event. They address both their personal struggles and the broader impact of the tragedy on their family. Alec shared, “I always feel more in pain about you than me,” as he expressed concern for Hilaria’s emotional well-being and how the circumstances have affected her.
Despite the challenges, they strive to create a sense of normalcy for their children. Hilaria noted, “I know what we’re going through is maybe unique, but every family goes through hard times.” They are committed to doing their best for their kids, even when facing their own internal battles.
A Shared Journey
The Baldwin family has been candid about their tough times, but they also emphasize the importance of staying united as they navigate this painful journey together. Hilaria mentioned, “All we can do is our best and try to make our kids happy.” This enduring commitment to their family forms the backbone of their ongoing healing process amid the scars left by the Rust shooting incident.
As Alec and Hilaria continue to confront the emotional aftermath, their story becomes not just a personal journey but a shared narrative of overcoming tragedy, offering insights into the resilience of love and family in the face of unimaginable sorrow.
